the books and podcasts that have actually helped
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the books and podcasts that have actually helped

Yesterday's post was the practical list , organisations, helplines, websites, what to do and in what order. This one is the more personal version. The things I've actually read and listened to, some of which were exactly what I needed at exactly the right time.

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we don't have a plan for 10th grade and I am doing great
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we don't have a plan for 10th grade and I am doing great

It is July. September is six weeks away, give or take, and I have not yet successfully answered the question of what 10th grade looks like for my daughter. I have, however, created several documents, attended two meetings that ended without resolution, and read the same three articles multiple times as though they might say something different on the fourth pass.

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the end of the school year hits differently this time
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the end of the school year hits differently this time

The last day of school came and went, and I spent most of it trying to locate the feeling I was supposed to be having. I think it was relief. It kept slipping away every time I got close to it and turning into something I hadn't budgeted for emotionally and definitely wasn't prepared to deal with in a Trader Joe's parking lot.

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the post-covid rise in school avoidance: what the data actually shows
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the post-covid rise in school avoidance: what the data actually shows

Before my daughter stopped going to school, I had a vague sense that this kind of thing happened to some kids, somewhere, occasionally. I did not have any sense that it was happening at a scale significant enough to have its own research literature, its own clinical terminology, or its own entry in a BMJ journal article with the phrase "perfect storm" in the title.

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oh, you just have to get her to school
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oh, you just have to get her to school

People mean well. I want to start there, because what follows is going to sound uncharitable, and I am trying very hard to remain a person who extends good faith to others, which is something I have to remind myself of more frequently than I'd like since we started navigating this particular situation.

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when she stays home: what the research says about making the most of a hard day
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when she stays home: what the research says about making the most of a hard day

There is a version of the home day that goes fine. She sleeps in a little, comes downstairs eventually, eats something, does some work at the kitchen table, doesn't spiral, and by 2pm the day has passed without incident and you both move on. There is also the other version, which is the one that tends to actually happen.

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this is, against all odds, good news
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this is, against all odds, good news

I have learned, through years of practice I didn't ask for, to read any headline involving my kid's school district with the same resigned energy I'd bring to a voicemail from the school's main line. So it says something that I got all the way to the end of this one without flinching once.

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the (not so) hidden connection between neurodivergence and school avoidance in girls
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the (not so) hidden connection between neurodivergence and school avoidance in girls

I went looking for something else entirely and found the number that stopped me cold: in one large study of kids experiencing significant school distress, 92% were neurodivergent. If your daughter is struggling to get to school and neurodivergence hasn't come up yet, this might be the post that finally makes the pattern make sense.

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the questions aren’t procrastination
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the questions aren’t procrastination

For a long time I thought she wasn't listening. I thought she was procrastinating, buying time, running out the clock on a morning she didn't want to move through. What I understand now is that the questions were never procrastination. They were a form of self-reassurance.

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the 5:50am briefing
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the 5:50am briefing

I have been awake since 4:30am, not because an alarm went off — I stopped needing one months ago — but because my brain has quietly decided that this is simply when the day begins now. I get up at 5:30. At exactly 5:50am I go into her room. Not at 5:48 and not at 5:52 but at 5:50.

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